I miss being a simple person :-(

This couple of months something really hit me hard inside, I don't know what...but maybe I know why. Just try to grok everything as fast as I could, try to adapt to the situation in a simple and easiest manner, but as someone has said...I might have gotten some inferiority complex I couldn't bear it. 

I try to deal with everyone as natural as I can, it is soooo hard. Especially when you deal with the elder. Omigod...they are the hardest ones. I know that not everyone sees me as a person with ability to control the hard work, but they won't let me prove myself either. They just despise me on my back. They try to ruin my program in every possible way, I know that...but I cannot do anything except being very careful to run the program. Sometimes I wonder what kind of shrinks they are, but soon I discover that's what you are gonna be when you deal with too many mental people. Only one person clearly states the disagreement since she regards my position as a strategic position in the faculty. Fair enough. Fortunately my beloved fussy old woman backs me up by pushing me to prove that they are wrong. Thank you bu....

Now...in the last day of 2008, I have clear resolutions to make for 2009 (besides trying to find me a life partner hahaha). I didn't have any resolution for 2008, and I become what I am now. I have to have one. So this is my 2009 resolutions: I wanna be a better teacher, a better researcher, a better daughter, a better sister, a better friend of all, a better wife (ooopss not yet), and of course...a better secretary to the faculty :-P so I wish everyone and myself HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009, may the next year would be better off in every aspects of our lives. May God bless us and may peace be in earth (damn u Israel...I don't understand why you did that horrible thing!!)

I miss being a simple person

This couple of months something really hit me hard inside, I don't know what...but maybe I know why. Just try to grok everything as fast as I could, try to adapt to the situation in a simple and easiest manner, but as someone has said...I might have gotten some inferiority complex I couldn't bear it. 

I try to deal with everyone as natural as I can, it is soooo hard. Especially when you deal with the elder. Omigod...they are the hardest ones. I know that not everyone sees me as a person with ability to control the hard work, but they won't let me prove myself either. They just despise me on my back. They try to ruin my program in every possible way, I know that...but I cannot do anything except being very careful to run the program. Sometimes I wonder what kind of shrinks they are, but soon I discover that's what you are gonna be when you deal with too many mental people. Only one person clearly states the disagreement since she regards my position as a strategic position in the faculty. Fair enough. Fortunately my beloved fussy old woman backs me up by pushing me to prove that they are wrong. Thank you bu....

Now...in the last day of 2008, I have clear resolutions to make for 2009 (besides trying to find me a life partner hahaha). I didn't have any resolution for 2008, and I become what I am now. I have to have one. So this is my 2009 resolutions: I wanna be a better teacher, a better researcher, a better daughter, a better sister, a better friend of all, a better wife (ooopss not yet), and of course...a better secretary to the faculty :-P so I wish everyone and myself HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009, may the next year would be better off in every aspects of our lives. May God bless us and may peace be in earth (damn u Israel...I don't understand why you did that abhorrent thing!!)

Part one is done :-)

I have to celebrate this...got a work done at the expense of at least 3 meetings, not getting enough sleep, stacks of paperworks to do, and half of my head gone. It's really adrenaline braindrain, and I have to promise myself not to do this again in the future. At least, I have to count on myself a little bit harder, not counting on others to do everything because usually it won't work out well since finally it is you who have to finish it.

I got this wise thought everytime I have to work in groups, but always forget it when I'm into another group. People say I'm forgetful, some other say I'm forgiveful, and many say I'm stupid. Fair enough. But tell you the truth, the almost deadline working condition is always an addict to me, but I can always tell myself when to start, stop or get a rest. By McClelland's theory, I'm probably an achiever, I have a rather high need for achievement. I know when to compete, always counting on my ability to solve problem. I usually don't get hard jobs, something beyond my competencies. In Pak Budi's term, I'm a moderate decision maker, not a gambler.

But couple of days ago, I made a wrong decision. I played gambling by trusting others to complete the job. Actually it's not a one person job, but I can tell you, if only I have three days left to do the job, I will finish it well myself. Unlucky for me I had many to do list these days, so I spreaded the jobs to others, then I would compile it at the last day before deadline. What happened then? It's unfinished...of course...

In panic I started the job right after the fieldtrip yesterday (only God knows how exhausted I was that time), it didn't finished until morning. So I have to give up my office work today, and finally finished it already at 1pm, and submitted it at 4pm. Thank God....that was nightmare....but it's not lasted yet, since I have to make some improvements (of course it's not a perfect work...an undone research report done in one night???? Hell no...). Don't wanna think about it now...gotta get some sleep. Zzzzzzzz......

That darn booking clerk!

Yesterday I went to a workshop at UI Salemba. I was wise enough not to take my privilege to use office car, I decided to take the train instead. It's easier, cheaper, more unstressful, etc. The problem was that I didn't know the schedule.

So there I was, standing in front of the booking clerk, and asking about the schedule. I knew that there's a written schedule, but I wanted to know specific schedule...the depok-turn trains. That means, trains would return to jakarta from depok. They won't go to Bogor because Depok is their last station. That means also...they won't be loaded as bogor trains will. I chose that special trains. 

Unfortunately, the clerk got some issue with his life, and that cause me his victim that morning. He said that the AC economy train will be there at 9.15 am, which was impossible to catch since the program started at 9 (it was 7.15 am). I asked about the other depok-turn trains going to Jakarta, he clearly and annoyingly said there were no such train anymore. I was so shocked and so believed in him, so I just asked the economy train.

I walked through the platform feeling angry, and suddenly I was standing at the end of the platform. A train passed me by, I didn't get in, I just got a seat at the platform instead. I read my book comfortably while watching people around me. It's so funny they could be my inspiration in one way and another. Until I heard about a depok-turn train from jakarta at exactly 7.30 am! Omigod....Damn you mr. booking clerk!!! 

I run as fast as I could to the other platform, and almost gave up because the train was already horned. The guys I passed by shouted "impossible...impossible" but I wasn't Debby at all if I didn't try. I shouted to people at the train "WAIIITTTTTTT..." while running. When I got almost in front of the train, the ijver gave sign for me to across the railroad and accepted me inside the train while mumbling "don't do this again". Thank God...I almost stopped breathing!

This morning when I cross the train station again on my way to campus, I looked for that darn clerk, but it's already other person there. Hmmm...maybe I wasn't allowed to be angry at those kind of people. It's not worth it after all. I promised to myself to be more precise and demanding because I'm the customer, I'm the king...and you are my servant.

Funny incidence from the President-Elect of the USA

Just read this from Yahoo.com, it's soooo funny everyone gets so paranoid these days, thanks to Palin. Hehehe....

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Ros-Lehtinen hangs up on Obama. Twice.

Is Ileana Ros-Lehtinen a little paranoid?

Maybe.

On Wednesday, the Republican congresswoman got a call from President-elect Barack Obama, didn't believe it was him, and hung up on him. Twice.

According to Ros-Lehtinen's flack Alex Cruz, the congresswoman received the call on her cell phone from a Chicago-based number and an aide informed her that Obama wanted to speak to her. When Obama introduced himself, Ros-Lehtinen cut him off and said, "I'm sorry but I think this is a joke from one of the South Florida radio stations known for these pranks." Then she hung up.

Moments later, Obama tried again, this time through his soon-to-be chief of staff, Rahm Emanuel.

"Ileana, I cannot believe you hung up on the President-Elect," Emanuel said. And then--yes, you know what's coming--she hung up on Emanuel saying she "didn't believe the call was legitimate."

A short time later, Ros-Lehtinen received an urgent call from Rep. Howard Berman (D-Calif.), the chairman of the Foreign Affairs Committee, who informed her that she indeed hung up on Obama.

So, Obama tried again and this time he was successful. (Phew!)