I miss being a simple person

This couple of months something really hit me hard inside, I don't know what...but maybe I know why. Just try to grok everything as fast as I could, try to adapt to the situation in a simple and easiest manner, but as someone has said...I might have gotten some inferiority complex I couldn't bear it. 

I try to deal with everyone as natural as I can, it is soooo hard. Especially when you deal with the elder. Omigod...they are the hardest ones. I know that not everyone sees me as a person with ability to control the hard work, but they won't let me prove myself either. They just despise me on my back. They try to ruin my program in every possible way, I know that...but I cannot do anything except being very careful to run the program. Sometimes I wonder what kind of shrinks they are, but soon I discover that's what you are gonna be when you deal with too many mental people. Only one person clearly states the disagreement since she regards my position as a strategic position in the faculty. Fair enough. Fortunately my beloved fussy old woman backs me up by pushing me to prove that they are wrong. Thank you bu....

Now...in the last day of 2008, I have clear resolutions to make for 2009 (besides trying to find me a life partner hahaha). I didn't have any resolution for 2008, and I become what I am now. I have to have one. So this is my 2009 resolutions: I wanna be a better teacher, a better researcher, a better daughter, a better sister, a better friend of all, a better wife (ooopss not yet), and of course...a better secretary to the faculty :-P so I wish everyone and myself HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009, may the next year would be better off in every aspects of our lives. May God bless us and may peace be in earth (damn u Israel...I don't understand why you did that abhorrent thing!!)