Part one is done :-)

I have to celebrate this...got a work done at the expense of at least 3 meetings, not getting enough sleep, stacks of paperworks to do, and half of my head gone. It's really adrenaline braindrain, and I have to promise myself not to do this again in the future. At least, I have to count on myself a little bit harder, not counting on others to do everything because usually it won't work out well since finally it is you who have to finish it.

I got this wise thought everytime I have to work in groups, but always forget it when I'm into another group. People say I'm forgetful, some other say I'm forgiveful, and many say I'm stupid. Fair enough. But tell you the truth, the almost deadline working condition is always an addict to me, but I can always tell myself when to start, stop or get a rest. By McClelland's theory, I'm probably an achiever, I have a rather high need for achievement. I know when to compete, always counting on my ability to solve problem. I usually don't get hard jobs, something beyond my competencies. In Pak Budi's term, I'm a moderate decision maker, not a gambler.

But couple of days ago, I made a wrong decision. I played gambling by trusting others to complete the job. Actually it's not a one person job, but I can tell you, if only I have three days left to do the job, I will finish it well myself. Unlucky for me I had many to do list these days, so I spreaded the jobs to others, then I would compile it at the last day before deadline. What happened then? It's unfinished...of course...

In panic I started the job right after the fieldtrip yesterday (only God knows how exhausted I was that time), it didn't finished until morning. So I have to give up my office work today, and finally finished it already at 1pm, and submitted it at 4pm. Thank God....that was nightmare....but it's not lasted yet, since I have to make some improvements (of course it's not a perfect work...an undone research report done in one night???? Hell no...). Don't wanna think about it now...gotta get some sleep. Zzzzzzzz......