Life Is About Choices – A Reflection (2)

Many times I had to choose among many things, or simply between two things. Every time I chose one, I was led to a corridor I didn’t yet know where it ended. Every time I felt that I had chosen the wrong one, I felt sorry for myself for a stupid decision and started to blame myself. I didn’t realize that everything is already in its position, and I have already given a chance to choose on my free will (now I know what ‘free will’ means).

I’ve learned a lot these past two weeks. Maybe this is the life lesson I might not be experienced if I chose to take the chance Ibu Naniek had given me last year. Frankly speaking, I always blamed myself for not taking the good chance. Visitation for Master of Science Program Accreditation is the case that made me more mature. I don’t want to talk about it any longer, but the impact is very good for my mental health development. My self-confidence is growing, and I eventually realized that no one’s perfect. No worth to be getting angry to a bunch of clowns since they expect us to laugh. Ha ha ha. Plus, this year I was given many chances to develop myself, knowing many people I might not be known better if I chose not to be here a year ago.

Then this coming seminar by the end of November 2006. I feel stressed out by the fact that I am the head of the organizing committee. Sometimes I was mad at my team for them not taking this serious, but many times I was aware that when I was the team member like them, I acted like one. Hhhhh….maybe karma really exists. I promised myself I would be more serious for the next programs we will have. Oh sure…we will have many other programs since we are the young leaders of sasakawa. Hehehehe…

Yesterday Kris sent a short message. She felt sorry she was given an offering from Samarinda office to join them. If only she was offered that job 3 years ago. Then I gave her advice (ceila….me giving someone advice?!) that she had to choose no matter what, and stick with her choice. It is not impossible that alternative number one is good for a short-term period, but alternative number two is good for a long-term period. Moreover, my brother stays in Bandung, and intends to be Bandung citizens for all his life. He loves Bandung so much, maybe someone has put a charm in his body. And if she loves him very much, she has to sacrifice her desire to take the chance.

To summarize, I feel so lucky now…and so proud of my choices. So guys, choose your own way and work that out as good as you can, and God will do the rest. That’s my reflection before Christmas.